Has God Abandoned My Father?

     My family and I had to move My Father into a nursing home. This was his biggest fear as well ours. It was the last thing we wanted to do but we had no choice. Given his physical and mental decline in health we were faced with no alternative. Of course we all want what's best for him but then we were also feeling some sort of guilt as we knew this was not what any of us wanted. As we walked through the hallways I saw the residents with various forms physical and mental morbidities I was feeling waves of a variety of emotions. It wasn't my first time in a nursing home. My grand mother was in one for years. However, this time I felt a deep sense of heaviness. I kept my thoughts focused on the fact that we were doing what was best for dad. But I couldn't help but wonder for a moment if God had abandoned dad as well as all these people?

      I went into my usual introspective self to evaluate how I was feeling. I hoped to shine light on my dark thoughts to get a better perspective on what was really happening. This was a moment where I had to examine and choose the belief systems that keep me connected to my inner being and the path to God. I reminded myself of the quote from Oprah Winfrey which I mentioned in my previous post titled  The Truth About How I Am Doing. "What you think in life is happening to you is really happening for you." And as I contemplate this quote a lot  deeper for me it breaks it down like this, we have one of two choices in which path to live our lives. We can either decide to be a victim and choose the path of 'victimization consciousness.' Or we can choose God, the path of 'personal empowerment.'

What's the difference?

The Victim

• Choses to see the world as a place where there are negative events happening TO them
• Blame others for what's wrong in their own lives
• Often seek revenge on others
• Stay stuck in their 'story' and wants everyone to hear their 'story'
• Draining to be around
• Feels stuck in their lives and unable to move forward
• Often feels and complains of being abandoned
• Feel helpless and sorry for themselves. "Why me?"
• Thinks that personal power is something that you give or take away to get what you want
• Chooses Fear

The Empowered

• Choses to see the world as a place where everything is happening FOR them
• Aligns themselves with the power of God and knows that that is their true source of power
• Take responsibility for their actions and lives
• Look for the meaning and what they can learn from every situation and person
• Uplifting to be around
• Knows that God has given them tools to overcome every challenge and obstacle
• Never feels alone and believes in the presence of the existence of the divine within
• Never complains
• Utilizes their personal power with love always
• Chooses love

        The path of personal empowerment is the path of love. It is the path to God. Its living life knowing that everything is happening for a reason and is perfectly in divine order. Its knowing that there is always a lesson attached to each situation for our soul. And that every person and the circumstance are all perfectly created for our souls growth. Our job is not to judge. Not to blame. Not to make excuses but to learn our lessons. By seeking to learn we are operating from a higher level of consciousness. Those that chose to look to blame will only cause self inflicted suffering. This lower level of consciousness will keep a person trapped in a viscous karmic cycle where lessons are repeated painfully over and over again. Evolution and growth for the victim is not possible until they choose the path of empowerment. How you respond to every situation is a choice and the outcome will be depended on whether you choose love or fear.

        If you are buying into abandonment consciousness then you believe that God put us on this planet and left us alone till we die. It doesn't make sense to me that God would leave his own children without tools, resources, teachers and his own supervision till their death. The victim chooses to see that there is separation between them and God and between them and everyone else. The empowered believes in unity consciousness. That we are all one and the divinity of God is within everything and everyone.

The victim asks the question "why me?" The empowered says "Thank you." The victim says "I got screwed over again." The empowered says "What do I need to learn from this situation? And no matter what happens I know I will be a better person because of it."

 

       

Is God trying to teach me something?

When  I sat down to internalize what was happening to my dad and all those people in the nursing home I realized that every soul is getting exactly what they need. By choosing to see them as suffering then I am only bringing fear energy to them and myself. We all have our journey to live and with that comes our own contracts and lessons to learn. To align myself with the true source of my power I can only surrender all and leave it in the hands of our master. I can also choose to pray to lessen their burdens and ask for grace for every person.

         The only way to truly shift from the 'victim' to the 'empowered' is to surrender. I remember one time I lost my driver's license. I looked and looked everywhere for it. I of course knew that everything happens for a reason and so when I sat with it and prayed the message I received from my angels was "to stop trying to do everything on my own and let God and the Angels take over" I had all this divine help except I thought I had to do it alone. I went and got a new license as the old one no longer served me. By losing that license I also let go of an old belief system that "I was alone." From then on I chose to surrender and recognize I am always supported. My new license reflected my new identity.

        When we pray and ask for help it's up to us to then open our arms and hearts and be willing to receive Gods help. Victimized pray and then block themselves from receiving help. They don't think their prayers are being heard. They think God is too busy helping others or that they aren't worthy of his help. Those that are in alignment with Gods grace and power pray and are willing to receive the help they are asking for knowing that their prayers are always answered. They don't worry about the 'how's.' Its like when you place an order in a restaurant you don't go into the kitchen and show the chef how to make your dish. Once your order is placed you leave in the trusting hand of the waiter and chef to bring your food to you. Prayers work to same way. Once we ask we surrender and leave the task in God's hands.

        And finally there is a gift, treasure or lesson in every situation. But if we are not looking for it chances are we will miss it. The gifts and treasures will always liberate you. It will leave you feeling expanded, light and transformed. I believe that there are many gifts in this whole situation with moving dad into a nursing home. For one thing, it has brought me closer to many people. It has helped me appreciate my parents a lot more. In fact I feel each day with a greater sense of gratitude. I'm more grateful for my own health. I've also realized how important it is for me to feel and experience connection with others. And I am sure that many more gifts will be revealed in time. 

        What I've learned is I cannot chose how to feel for my dad or the residents in the nursing home but I can decide how to feel for myself as we all have free will. In fact in every moment and in every situation we will always be faced with a choice. It is always up to us to decide whether we will choose the path of the victim or the path of the empowered. There are no other options. It's one or the other. 

        If you think victimized thoughts you will experience it's consequences. If you think empowering thoughts you will experience it's consequences.  If you're not sure where to start on creating an empowered life start with empowering thoughts. Here are some affirmations you can use to stay empowered and release all the negativity associated with victimization consciousness.

• My power is  Mine and I use it in  loving ways 

• I align myself with the power of God because that is the only true source of my power

• All praise is due to Allah

        How we chose to view our lives and the vibration we hold is always impacting us and all those around us. In that moment when I was walking down the corridor of my dads nursing home I was faced with a choice. That choice would impact me, my dad, my family and everyone in the nursing home. Our choices can create positive or negative emotions, experiences and relationships. By embracing the presence of the divine and affirming our personal power can only lead to complete evolution and transformation. The impact of that is limitless. And the power to chose lies within our selves. Always.

Angel Blessings to ALL