How to Stay on the Path Towards Your Transformation During Difficult times

Photograph date: February 8, 2016

       The journey of any transformation is never an easy one. No matter what life throws at me I've managed to turn it all into the fuel I need to stay on the path towards my goals physically mentally and spiritually. Every wound, hurt, success and  victory drives me. I've learned to take everything and and use it as fuel towards my workouts. The good and the bad. It feeds me to be better, strive consciously and invest it all into my well being so that I can be my best self. And what I know to be true is that when we are at our best selves all our relationships benefit and or improve.

         Mom was recently hospitalized for eight days. I spent anywhere from six to ten hours by her side. This impacted my energy stores. Hospitals can be heavy and draining. Worrying about moms health placed a toll on me. My access to healthy meals were inconsistent but I still worked out. I did what every successful transformation requires and that is to "show up." You give what you can that day that moment but you "show up." There were days when I didn't want to workout but I did anyway. And I balanced this with taking the rest that I also needed. If I needed a nap I took it without feeling guilty. As rest and sleep are just as important for physical recovery. It also meant I honoured my body. There's a fine line between how hard you can push yourself and burning out. There is a price to pay one which I also know as I've been there.

     Whilst spending many hours at the hospital I needed to manage my energy. As any empath knows hospitals can contain a lot of heavy energy that is quite draining. To stay balanced I used colouring and art therapy, journaling as well as meditation to help connect with my inner being and mind.

 I went to the gym and stayed grounded in my body. Balancing my inner wellness allowed me to have enough energy to do my workouts and all of which helped to nourish my body.

There are many mandala colouring books for a mindful mediation experience

      I know with absolute certainty today that your sense of connection with your inner being will always reflect how you look and feel on the outside. Always. This is why I created my path as a Spiritual Personal Trainer. My own journey, my testimonial, my life authentically reflects this. We are spiritual beings having a human experience and the more we align with our inner being or the more we  lead a spirit centred life the easier we are guided to make healthy positive choices for ourselves. That force within will always help guide us. We just have to tap into it. Then taking care of our physical bodies will follow from the right intentions.

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Angel Blessings to ALL

2016 "The Year of My Voice"

I've declared 2016 as the year of "My Voice." My intention is to create a field of energy potential that is empowering by using my voice to express myself in healthy ways. For so many years I felt like I couldn't express myself. My voice was shut off from abuse and being told to 'be quiet." I grew up feeling like what I said didn't matter. But now I've chosen to speak up! To say what matters to me because I matter. Little did I know the universe was orchestrating on my behalf to give me the platform to serve my intention.

Last summer I had reoccurring dreams that I was back on stage travelling and speaking at various fitness conventions. I had taken time away to regroup what I wanted to teach but also because of various family matters that required a lot of my energy and attention. I knew that I missed being on stage and longed to get back on the circuit of presenting. I missed the energy, instant validation and connection with a live audience. Something which social media lacks for me. Well one day after yet another dream I ran into the vice president of CanFitPro (The Canadian Fitness Professionals Association). Now I don't believe in coincidences and so I knew that literally a collision of a chance meeting at a local shopping mall was part of a greater plan. He asked what I had been up to? After briefing him on what has kept me away from presenting I said I was considering returning. He asked me to send him my session descriptions of what I'd like to present and well long story short I just got an email today that I'm on the schedule to speak at CanFitPro 2016 in Toronto!

So you might be thinking "well that's great but you have been presenting prior to that already so how why is this year about you're voice?" The answer is simple.

with Marla Ericksen

I'm finally in a place in my life where I am comfortable with talking about the things that matter to me in a way in which doesn't involve shame and fear of judgement. All the stages I've presented on in my past have prepared me for the ones I'm going to be on this year. And the universe is making it all happen. CanFitPro is only one of the many platforms I'll be using to express my truth and taking about what matters to me. And my new list of topics reflects this. So now I'm gearing up to speak and present topics that are closer to me. I'm very excited and looking forward to all that lies before me! How does it get better then this?

Angel Blessings

The Transformation of My Anger And Rage

Growing up I was never allowed to express myself. I was shut down. Told to be quiet. I was bullied and abused and when I tried to express my feelings I was told to be a better person and not say anything. I was hurt frustrated, angry and then over the years it cultivated like I was over stalk piled with all these negative emotions. I became a volcano waiting to explode. Whenever the anger surfaced or wanted to be expressed I continued to suppress it. It was the only pattern of behaviour in which I knew how to deal with it. I called that being "non confrontational." Inside I knew I was walking time bomb. Only now it got to the point where there was no more space in body to store and keep the anger. I needed an outlet. A safe outlet. I need to let out how I was feeling. The hurt, the anger from all the abuse and bullying. I couldn't contain it anymore. 

I was ashamed about how I felt. On the outside I was "Farhan who always keeps it together, so calm so centred." which is true. I am that person. But I'm also human and in need of expressing that part of me that weighs me so heavily.  I was afraid of judgement. On the inside I was beginning to crumble. Not feeling like I had permission to express all the good, the bad and the ugly. But I'm just like everyone else. No better, no different.


I reached out to my dear friend Noreia Sacoor, a gifted healer, a soul sister and someone I knew could help me heal my wound. I also knew that this wound was not just mine, Collectively I was carrying it for everyone in the lineage of my family past, present and future. I needed to break that pattern, release the anger and heal it in all directions of time. A tough pre-birth contract I had agreed to. Noreia said my anger needed to be heard, it had a voice that was longing to be expressed. Without any coincidence I had already declared that 2016 is to be the year of my voice. To declare my personal power by using my voice to express and speak. 

"I have the right to speak." 

is my affirmation for this year. For everyone that took my voice away, that told me to be quiet and made me think that what I had to say didn't matter I reclaim my voice. I choose to own what is mine and use it as tool to speak my truth with transparency.

And so to ceremoniously release my rage, to unleash my anger to be free from the toxicity that has plagued me for so long I went to the "The Rage Cage" in Toronto and I broke, smashed and destroyed objects into dust leaving no trail behind and wanting every cell in my body to feel only the peace I long for. The peace I was born with and the peace that is my truest self.

To all my bullies, abusers and to the witness that saw and did nothing to defend me I simply say "thank you." I took every wound and turned them all into my treasures. I chose to see it as fuel to move ahead in life, strike after my dreams and manifest everything I chose for in my life and continue to do so. It never broke me.  I know that the strength of my alignment with my true source and that is my only Source allows me to succeed at everything. In God I be today and in God I be always. I choose peace for myself. I pray there be peace for all.

Prayer for Peace for ALL: Please Read and share Thank YOU

Dear Light workers please help to raise the vibrations of our planet by radiating our divine light where ever there may be any fear energy. Let our light be so bright that it leads to all things made of love, joy, peace and harmony. I send prayers today and every day that may we all see ourselves as one with each other. That our true selves will out shine any other illusion based in fear. I pray that our hearts be filled with so much love that each and every person in this world is able to see, feel and believe in it's existence. Let all our power be from God only. That it may be our only source of power now and always. Angel Blessings to ALL. ‪#‎PeaceToAll‬ ‪#‎OneLove‬

Ricky Martin #OneWorldTour "My Experience!"

As I walked into Toronto's Air Canada's centre the anticipation of seeing Ricky Martin's show was heightening for me. This would be my sixth time seeing him perform live and my excitement was greater then ever. This concert was more special to me because I got to meet him prior to the show! A dream come true! Our exchange was beyond my imagination. It was magical and miraculous. An angel orb appeared in the photograph of us hugging. It couldn't have been more perfect. Ricky was kind, welcoming and really genuine. As always he had this incredible presence and a vibration of love and gratitude. He is on stage as he is off. My premium pass included attending the sound check and I got to stand in the pit directly centre stage during the show. How does it get better then this?

Ricky Martin is a powerful light worker. He has the capacity to facilitate the energy of an entire auditorium in an organic and symbiotic way. He channels and cultivates the energy of his fans so that it  feeds him. He then turns around and builds this incredible energy field with infinite potential that radiates across the arena reaching everyone. It's a palpable energy that raises consciousness and creates tremendous shifts. It's a powerful experience to witness. And as with every Ricky Martin concert it left you wanting more.

An Angel Orb Appeared in this Photo When We Hugged

Ricky's One World Tour is a simpler stage set up then his previous concerts. There is also less theatrics and very little time between sets with quick outfit changes. Ricky made sure to give the audience what they came to see the most and that was him perform. Each of his concerts have left a different impression on me. I liked this particular tour because it gave us more of him. Ricky often teased us asking "Una mas? " to which the crowd responded with a roar each time. Even his opening message to us was simple:

"I want you to have fun. Forget about your problems. Forget all your issues at home, at work and your life. I want you to be free. I want you to be happy. Remember these words"

 Ricky Martin also had important messages for his fans. He has used his platform as an artist to create awareness of issues that need our attention.  His true mission is far greater then creating hit songs.  His music continues to allow him to be of service to humanity including the formation of the Ricky Martin Foundation. A charity that helps rescue children from slavery and human trafficking.  An interlude of visual images were displayed during the show of children that his foundation is helping. Today there are 27 million children world wide who are victims of exploitation. This crisis of the human spirit has created his greatest calling in addition to fatherhood. This was the most important message of the night. Ricky is asking each of us to help. Music has the power to create movement for the better. It can heal many things and even save lives. Knowing this he has authentically aligned artistry and humanitarianism.

The final image is of a little girl not more then three or four years old. The jumbo screen emphasized these beautiful piercing eyes. As I looked into them I couldn't help but wonder what was her story? What has she been through at such a young age? What does it mean for her to be free from exploitation and possibly slavery? I only hope that her future is now promising that no matter what she would live to know that there is a chance for a beautiful life filled with potential for her. This is my prayer for every child who has been exploited.

"Where words fail music speaks."

These are the words posted on Ricky's Twitter page. His mission is also to use music to unite people from all over the world. Ricky pointed out that there was representation from so many countries in all his shows. "This is beautiful to see" he said. He looked across from the stage to the many flags of the different countries people were representing. Music is a way that transcends all borders that separate us geographically. And in that moment we all experienced oneness consciousness. So often it takes a tragedy to unite us but at any time in our lives music can bring people together. Ricky is a true human being for bringing people from all over the world together to celebrate our oneness through the experience of pure joy.

The only part I didn't enjoy about this show was the fact that it had to end!  So as he sang his finale "Cup of Life" I pulled out my gratitude crystal I had in my pocket. I held it in my hand and thought of everything I was grateful for on this night as a symbol and a reminder to keep the feelings and emotions I experienced with me forever. I'm so grateful to Ricky for creating a night that will always be special to me. The joy that I experienced was also felt by everyone I've talked to about his concert. When I posted  my pictures on social media I was overwhelmed with an outpour of love and messages. My joy became everyone else's. You have to admit the smile on my face most certainly says it all!

The Ricky Martin Foundation "We advocate for the well being of children around the world in such areas as education, health and social justice by condemning human trafficking and creating awareness" To make a donation visit:

http://www.rickymartinfoundation.org/en/

Angel Blessings to ALL

You're Sunset is Someone Else's Sunrise

My favourite part of the beach on a hot summer day is watching the sunset. I'll sit there and stare off into the distance watching the sun get smaller fading off into the horizon. I love the way a clear blue sky turns into a multitude of colours  And then there is the period when the beach becomes still and calm as everyone stops what their doing to watch the beauty of the sunset. Though I've seen many sunsets over the years this particular September evening I had a bit of an aha moment. As I was lost staring into the sunset I realized something for the very first time. Everyone in the world has one sun.  In that moment my experience was a sun set but for someone else on the other side of the world that sun was in fact rising. We may all be looking at the same sun but each of us are having our very own experiences.

As the week went on I couldn't help but think more deeper into my sunset experience. I realize how different a perspective people can have when looking at the same thing. And not just  sunsets but with everything! Each of our perceptions are individual and personal. We can only relate to things from our perspective but from now on I'll always be open to the idea that someone could have a different one.

I was at a funeral this week for a close friends father. Having lost my own father recently I could relate to all the emotions my friend and her family were feeling.  When I left the service  I starred into the bright sun and it reminded me of the sunset I saw just a few days ago. It seemed like the loss of our fathers was an ending  much like the sun set. But for our dads their lives were more like a 'sun rise' and their transition was really a new beginning.

The cyclical nature of the sun is very reassuring to always have faith and trust. No matter what is happening in your life, no matter how good or bad you can always count on another sunrise after every sunset. The sun will always come back. And like in life as one door closes a new one opens.  Lastly there is a general flow in life. Everything including the sun is always in motion. There really are no real endings. Just transitions and transformations. Staying in the flow begins with feeling gratitude, accepting that change is a part of life and being present in the moment because the future is always uncertain. But despite uncertainties to know that everything is always in divine order.

All is and always will be well. 

Angel Blessings To All

What Do You Need to Let Go In Order to Grow?

I woke up Sunday morning excited about spending the day at the beach. There were only a few short weeks left of summer in Toronto and when I looked out the window I saw a clear blue sky and a very bright sun. As I opened our front door with all my beach necessities in hand I was greeted with the heat from the sun, thick humidity and all the scents of a hot summer day! When I got to the driveway I saw that the huge maple tree in front of our house had started to shed  a ton of leaves. Our driveway and front lawn had the first dropping of what would be many more leaves to come. Though today was a perfect beach day I knew that  fall was just around the corner.  As I looked to the tops of the tree many of the leaves had started to loose their dark green colour. They were starting to turn red and orange.  I still had today to get my beach groove on but I knew that summer time was near ending. I looked at the fallen leaves. It made me think of how tress are willing to let go and shed their leaves knowing that each spring it would bloom a whole new set. As I drove off to the beach I couldn't help but wonder what lessons our tree was offering me?

Fallen leaves are a lesson from the universe about surrendering and letting go. Trees have immense faith. They let go of their leaves knowing that new ones will blossom in the spring time as the tree goes through expansion and growth. We too are always growing and evolving. For us to grow we sometimes have to let go of what no longer serves us. That includes things we've outgrown, negative belief systems and old patterns. All of this shows up in our lives as a story that we have chosen to tell. It's a story we've created and choose to hold onto. Our old stories keep us from growing. They make us feel stuck. And prevent us from allowing our truest self to be expressed. Our story is just that. A story. To let go of our leaves we need to simply be willing to tell a new story. Our old leaves occupy space in our lives that block new energy that comes with growth. It's often a conditioned limiting belief.

Examples of limiting stories include:

• I'm not good enough
• I don't know what I want
• I'm a victim
• I'm not strong enough
• I can't
• This isn't the right time
• I'm scared
• I'm not worthy
• I'm not loveable
• I'm a failure
• I'm not good at anything
• .......Etc.

The story I've chosen to let go is "I am a victim. I am powerless" Victimization consciousness made me feel weak. It created feelings of separation, isolation and loneliness. Victimization is pure and simply negative and negativity can only attract negativity. To release this I chose to align myself with empowerment consciousness. I declared the divine in me as my true source. I decided to see that same source in everything and everyone. I authentically declared that source to be God and where all my power comes from.  My affirmation and prayer I recite each day as I awaken is:

"In the affinity of Life of where I am all is perfect whole and complete. I am one with the very power that created me and that power has given me the power to create my own circumstances." from the book "You Can Heal Your Life" by Louise Hay

This is my new story. It has shifted me from feeling powerless to powerful. A higher vibration then the one I was feeling. I let go of the story. I let go of my leaves. By telling a new story I've chosen to create a new reality that is reflective of my soul's growth. My old story wasn't serving me. It was an illusion. Making the choice to let it go empowered me.

What story are you holding onto that is not serving you? Perhaps letting go and surrendering will blossom your life with a new story, belief system and outlook. Be willing to let go and know with faith that a new story awaits to be told. Are you ready to embrace and tell a new story?

Angel Blessings to ALL