Fat Loss: A physical process or really a healing journey?

When approaching a weight loss program most of us would consider the notion and application that a healthy diet and exercise are the key elements to losing weight. I can't argue with that after all, I have applied these principles on my own body. However, my journey has thought me one key factor that has allowed me to succeed at keeping the weight off. Fat represents an aspect of our lives that needs healing and without this healing there can be no weight loss. Not permanent weight loss.

The fat on your body has a purpose. I never thought I'd say this considering my background in the fitness industry. After teaching fitness classes, presenting at fitness conferences all over the world, appearing on a successful workout show and reading and writing a multitude of articles I have finally learned the following:

1. Why I had fat on my body?
2. What purpose it served?
3. How to finally lose it. Permanently.

Now you may be thinking that all those years I was leading you astray. But I can only offer you what I know with where I am with the knowledge I have at that time. And in  the last few years I have taken the time to go within my body and see what inner work was required for me to finally heal, yes 'heal' myself. The fat loss is only the by product from this healing.

To understand why you have fat on your body you need to know that your physical make up is the consequence of your emotional biology. That is your thoughts and emotions. Emotions that come from trauma have a negative consequence on our bodies when they are not managed properly. The problem is that some of these traumas can occur when we are at a very young age. Our consciousness at that age is not developed enough to have the awareness that we have suffered a trauma and that it requires our attention.
Lets add to the equation that when we are young we start to develop our belief systems about ourselves, the world, our relationships and even about fat. If when we are young we see someone close to us make an impression on us about fat then we are likely to be programed to believe a particular belief system about fat.  Lets say one day dad points to his big fat belly and says "son the key to a happy man is to make sure he's well fed." Wham! Right away we are programed to think that having a fat belly is a sign of happiness. However, as we get older and  see the covers of Men's Health we start to desire a models body. But the earlier programming which took place at the early age is already wired into our subconscious and so deep that we don't even know that it exists. Now let's combine this with a trauma that took place around the time that we we're being programed. Most often times this is an emotional trauma. The result my friends is body that is in conflict with what one desires and deep rooted program along with trauma that prevents us from getting there.

This may all sound very complex but believe me when I say that the journey in this process is all about the benefits of healing. The healing is the key to finally liberating ourselves of unwanted fears, illusions and false beliefs. I'm very lucky that I was able to find someone who took me through a regression back to my childhood where all the memories of traumas and unwanted programming took place. What I learned completely floored me. I didn't even know that I could recall these events. The results were profound. The most important aspect was that I was able come to a place where I found healing. Healing that I didn't even know I needed.

If you're having trouble losing weight. If you find that you have tried many diets or exercise programs without success then my best advice to you is to shift your focus on your approach. You must ask your body and yourself what is it that you need healing from? Insightful meditation or perhaps a good regression therapist will be the key to unlock and heal the traumas that are keeping you from flat stomach and the body of your dreams!

Every day is a Miracle
Angel Blessings to ALL

What I Learned from Eating Desserts in Mexico!

Recently after a stretch of a period of long working hours and  a year and a half of no holidays I finally decided I needed a break. I took a vacation in every sense of the word including my job, routine, working out five to six times per week and from my stringent six meals a day diet. It was long over due! During my week off in Cancun I  let myself indulge and ate foods I wouldn't normally eat. Yes, I went for desserts, breads and the sinful carbs! At least they were sinful for me. I made sure that I ate well balanced meals but at a buffet spread I wouldn't stop myself from the desserts! I thought I was making the most of my holiday but what I didn't count on was learning about a major relationship I have with food and how it was affecting me in a negative way.

Three days into the trip I woke up with severe neck pain. I could hardly move my neck. I wasn't going to let it stop me from enjoying my time at Mexico but the discomfort got the best of me. I tried rest, massage and pain killers but this pain was relentless and I figured that there was something deeper in it's existence.  I decided to take a walk along the beach and I called on to my guides and Angels for insight as to why I was getting this pain during my well deserved holiday. As I walked with intention and allowed the waves in the back to drown all the action of the beach I opened myself up and turned in to what thoughts and feelings I was getting from them. It's actually so much easier to tune into divine guidance when your surrounded by natures beauty. It relaxes you, takes the stress away and makes you more receptive to their messages. What I heard next really surprised me. I heard the word 'guilt.' I thought at first that there was a mistake so I asked them my impeding question again. They said what I heard the first time and that was 'guilt.' I asked them for further explanation. What the Angels said to me was that the pain in my neck was the result of the feelings of guilt I felt for enjoying food that I was indulging in. Now this took me by surprise but when I thought about it they were absolutely right. I recalled feeling satisfied in indulgence but then the guilt would set in after every meal. I immediately thanked them for the divine insight and continued my walk as now I had plenty to think about.

For the next few days the pain in my neck started to resolve as I began to heal my relationship with food. It brought to light yet again how our bodies are always the biology of our psychology. Every thought leaves an imprint in us and when our thoughts are harmful they quite literally cause physical issues in our body.  The pain is the signal that our thoughts and emotions are out of balance and so healing must begin, at least I think, by correcting what we are thinking. As the emotions created by our thoughts, in other words how we feel, can have a direct response in our bodies. I was reminded of how guilt is a negative emotion and it does not serve us positively. So that was the first step.

The next was learning about my relationship with food. I was so strict with my diet and hard on myself that I decided that eating desserts was something to feel guilty about. If we buy into that consciousness we'll never enjoy food because we're always punishing ourselves for eating what we are so called not supposed to. The truth is our feelings about what we eat really determines the outcome on our bodies. I'm not saying to clean out the buffet table of the dessert selection! But life is about creating moments that are in alignment with feeling good about ourselves for the choices we make. If 90% percent of the time we are living a life making healthy nutritional choices then some indulgence definitely won't harm us. I was clearly being too hard on myself. I learned that I needed to be kinder to myself. If I'm going to have a dessert then I had to learn to enjoy  everything about it. That includes both during and after I eat it!

This journey is always a learning experience. I feel that our relationship with food can teach us a lot about how treat ourselves. I didn't realize just how badly I was punishing myself and as such disconnecting myself from some of the joys of life. I also learned that exercising and dieting are important but our perceptions of how it makes us feel is more important. I've now started to pay more attention as to how my choices in food are making me feel. My intention I've set forth is to always treat myself with kindness.

Angel Blessings to ALL

Unconventional Love

They say I’m not supposed to love you

We're not like Romeo and Juliet

They say it’s unnatural

But my heart’s given me permission

I know, it’s ok

In my mind I struggle

And I pray for an answer

There’s something about knowing you

Deep inside I feel it’s truth

So no matter what they say

I don’t care. I’ll take my chance

Doesn't everything in life

including you come with a price?

This unconventional love is worth the fight

I wish everyone could approve and love us

And pray for our happiness

Their blessings would mean so much

Sometimes life is unfair

I may have lost everyone but you 
This unconventional love is worth the fight

Dear God, tell me what to do?

Dear God please I’m begging you

How can  love cause so much hate?

In your eyes am I still saved?

Just give me a sign
I hope this unconventional love is worth the fight
 

I believe love comes to us all
And I deserve it too

With God in my heart

I’ll walk with you by my side

No matter what the road…I’ll at least try

 

Because this unconventional love is worth any price

This is the Universe calling! Do you get the Message?

I have had over 15 years of experience as a physiotherapist and it is ever more clear to me that every injury and accident that we experience in our lives is not a coincidence. These what appear to be as unfortunate orchestrations by the universe are opportunities for us to learn a deeper meaning about our selves as well as to re route our lives for the better. I believe the greatest lessons have to come with pain. It is with the emotion of pain that we really remember the experience. Think of the last time your hurt yourself and it really hurt? Do you immediately get memories of everything that happened and how horrible it was? Do you also realize that in that process lies the gifts and treasures to help you live a better life? There is always a correlation to what is happening in your physical body with what is happening in your life. Make no mistake. The word pain stands for "Pay Attention Inward Now" according Iyanla Vanzant and as a physiotherapist I know this both professionally and personally from my own experience!

I was 15 years old and just starting my first year in high school when I had a very bad fall from the top of a ladder. I landed on the outside of my right ankle resulting in tears of all the ligaments and a foot that looked as big as a foot ball. The result was  weeks on crutches, time away from school and extensive physiotherapy. At the time I really didn't know what a physiotherapist was. Looking back I realize that I had huge fears of starting high school. I had so many uncertainties and was already feeling the pressure of my future. The foot injury was really about 'not knowing' what directions I wanted to take with my life. This whole experience ignited my interest and hence pursuit to become a physiotherapist. This was the gift that came from what seemed like a terrible start to high school. I suddenly had a vision of what I wanted and it gave me a focus. I have to admit I didn't have a really good therapist. In fact my ankle healed a bit on an angle. Having realized this it didn't turn me off from the profession or physiotherapists. In fact I decided I not only wanted to become a therapist but I was going to try to be one of the best!  I took this situation and saw the gifts. little did I know at the time the universe was plotting for me to discover my life path. Looking back I may not have realized all the signs. Now I know better!

Over the years I've seen many clients with a wide assortment of injuries. I try my best in my own subtle way to help everyone see what the gift and or lesson lies within their pain and experience. In general, my patients who have been in a car accident require some major life decisions. Car accidents happen when the fear is so great that people are afraid to make their desired changes. Or their really not sure of what 'direction' to go towards. Most often times they are unhappy with their job,  marriage or any significant aspect of their lives.. Their too afraid or unsure as to what changes they should make and so the collision gives them the opportunity to really stop and take the time for reflection. Chances are if they still don't see the signs they'll get into another car accident. I'm sure you can think of at least one person who keeps getting rear ended? These are the people who play up to the role of being a victim and they get stuck in thinking like the victim. Their lesson here is really about conscious living and knowing that they are in control of their steering wheel meaning their life! My client Jim is a perfect example. Jim was rear ended and came to therapy because of neck and back injuries he sustained in his accident. About the second week of therapy as I was getting to know him it became clear that he was unhappy at work. Really unhappy. Jim complained all the time. I could always tell he was stressed as soon as I'd put my hands on his neck muscles. "Another bad day at the office?" I'd ask.
"Yes." "Can You tell?" he'd say. Well this went on for weeks. Till one day recently Jim's neck suddenly felt a lot better. His symptoms were almost gone and there was little or no tension in his muscles. I told him my findings and this obviously pleased him. A few days latter Jim returned for his second visit of the week. He decided to mention to me that he quit his job and was starting a new one in a few weeks. Something I had already suspected. Jim is an example of someone who realized that a catastrophe like a car accident is really a sign from the universe that we need to make changes in our lives. It literally takes a collision for us sometimes to take notice. Jim responded to therapy positively as he chose to make positive changes in his life. He's back in the game and feeling much healthier!

However, some of my clients just don't get it. There's George for example. He had a nasty fall on his knee while playing ice hockey. This wasn't his first fall and he was no stranger to the clinic. After spending sufficient time with George you knew this guy had a Type A personality and sustained a very busy work schedule. I knew the message for George was that he needed to slow down. "Yeah right." he'd say as though that was just impossible. Shortly thereafter George fell again making his symptoms worse. I warned him once again that he needed to take a holiday or at least some time off from work. George nodded in agreement but chose not to take my advice. George fell yet again. This made for a painful rehab process for the both us. You can imagine his frustrations as well as mine. Not everyone is prepared to make necessary changes. I just have to do my best and support them through their healing process.

Now it may be hard to think that there's a really good reason as to why you have an injury like a broken leg. It may be hard to imagine that there is good in every situation especially when it is new and your in pain.  If you're really not sure of what the gift is I suggest you stay optimistic and keep an expectant mind set. Expect the good. Expect that God will provide the solution. Expect that there is a positive outcome. Say to yourself  "I can't wait to see what good comes out of all this!"

What I've shared with you are some of the examples I've seen over the years. I'm sure there are those that aren't as severe. Yet I am sure there are those that are far worse like getting a major illness such as cancer. However, what I really want my readers to understand is that in every one of these circumstances lies a gift or treasure that the universe is offering to help you live a better life. When you are in pain remember that it stands for "Pay Attention Inward Now." The time you spend in contemplation will be time well worth spent. These so called tragedies are God's way of re routing your life. The life you truly desire. The life your so called afraid to live. You have a choice. You could choose to play the victim. That only means you're not living in a state of conscious awareness. I believe that life does not happen 'to' you but 'for' you. It's only when you shift your perception are you able to free yourself to the life you desire.

Angel Blessings to ALL.

What does it mean to be Spiritual?

I recently attended two taping s of Oprah's Life Class in Toronto and it inspired me to address the topic of spirituality. Oprah has never been afraid to express that she's a spiritual person and although she's been criticized for it she continues to practice what she preaches knowing that its all connected with her divine purpose. I know that when people think of me they often make references that I'm a very spiritual person too. And I've never really directly expressed what spirituality means to me personally. Much of my posts I have written here all pertain to some spiritual experience I have had in my life and so I thought I'd take the time to really express in words what I feel spirituality is for me. I've also been asked many times over the years how one can become more spiritual? If you're looking how to embrace spirituality into your life and in need of guidance on how to become spiritual please read on.
The first step in understanding spirituality is recognizing that we are a spiritual being that is having a human experience.

"There is no life without a spiritual life because we are Spiritual beings having a human experience". Oprah Winfrey

We can use the term soul and spirit interchangeably to a certain extent. I believe the soul is that part of us that is ever knowing and is that part of us that connects us to each other and everything. That is every living thing. And the soul is part of a larger being that you can call God or the Universe. The spirit is a characteristic of the soul that is the fuel that moves us towards our divine purpose, our path on earth and ultimately back to our origin. The human body  allows us to witness and observe our journey. It's just the vehicle that our soul is using on earth as a means to have all our experiences.

There are no rules and or guidelines on how to become spiritual. If there were we'd call it another religion. And that's not what spirituality is. The world of spirit is not governed by rites and rituals but there are some universal laws that assist us in understanding how this way of life is led by simple energetic principles. I use the term energy here as it is the understanding how this energy works which  fundamentally teaches us how the universe works.There's a law that states what you put out is exactly what you get back. This is your actions, your deeds and most definitely all your thoughts. This is called Karma. Your lessons in Karma are designed to make you the best person you possibly can be as when we perform acts of love we are representing God. As all thoughts and actions that come from love allow us to connect more deeply to the biggest source of love. It remind us of who we really are, what we are made of, where we come from and what is our divine purpose. Our ultimate purpose is to learn to love our selves that is our God selves without judgement and without condition. Think of the feeling you get when you see and hold a baby that's come into the world for the first time. It is pure joy and perfection. All we feel is nothing but love for this new born. It hasn't made any mistakes. It hasn't said anything nasty to us. It hasn't rejected us. It hasn't told his how hurtful we are etc. We were all that baby when we first came into this world. It's our purpose to ultimately feel the same way about our selves and others. Being spiritual means having an open heart and seeing everyone and everything just like this new born baby. Perfect love.

Being spiritual is knowing that you are not your thoughts. You are simply the observer of your thoughts. When you speak and think from a place of love you are connecting to your spirit. When you say harmful or judgmental things you are disconnecting from your spirit. The universe is always speaking to us. Through our thoughts, feelings and from everything around us. When are we disconnected with our spirit we are disconnecting ourselves from everything and lose our ability to hear the messages of the universe. Being in the flow of spirit is knowing that  we expect and are able to receive the messages that are meant for us from the universe. When we are disconnected we often feel lost and confused. Unsure of ourselves and our circumstance. We aren't able to make sound decisions and resort to unhealthy choices. Since we are a spiritual being having a human experience than know with certainty that every problem in our lives has a spiritual solution. And to be able to be guided to the solution we must be connected with our spirit.

Being spiritual is knowing that you are not your thoughts. You are simply the observer of your thoughts.Thoughts also have powerful energy. They can bring us up. They can bring us down. They have the kinetic energy that is always creating your future.  Deepak Chopra says "Use memories, do not allow memories to use you." In other words you can use your thoughts to make your self be the ever continued victim or you can use them to create the future your heart truly desires. The optimist is right. The pessimist is also right. He suggests that when you have a negative thought think of the word S.T.O.P. which is an acronym for "S" Stop. "T" Take three deep breathes. "O" Observe. "P" Precede with kindness.

You still might be asking where do I start with all this spiritual stuff? To really be spiritual there is no trying. There is just being as we are all human"beings." You don't need a great big awakening or near death experience to start the process. It is a self inner discovery process that is ever evolving. It helps us to better understand ours relationship with ourselves, others and God. But you can start with questions that you can consider thinking about.
1. Who am I?
Now really think about this. The answer shouldn't come to you right away. And it has nothing to do with your occupation or any role you play. In other words it's not the fact that you are a wife, husband, son, brother etc.
2. What are my talents and gifts?
Make a list of all your strengths. Don't ask for help with this. You must come up with this list on your own.
3. What is my purpose?
Once you've done your true soul searching you'll realize that the real answers will all lead to your ability to connect with the frequency of love. That frequency will lead you to the bigger love, that is God's love and finally your true purpose will arise when you discover that it brings you passion. And often times it will pertain in some way to the contribution towards others, animals the planet etc through acts of love.
It will feed your spirit. The fuel or energy that will lead us back to where it all started. These three questions have answers to which will always evolve as you evolve. Like all the energy in the universe it flows. As you stay in this flow so much will unfold in front of you. Don't expect to have all the answers right away. The universe likes to do things the best way and not your way. Besides the mysteries and all it's discoveries makes life all too exciting. I believe that God has and knows the bigger picture. I believe God has a bigger plan for us then we could ever imagine. When we see and witness the world and our lives with unlimited potential we embrace all kinds of possibilities. We just have to let go and let God.

Angel Spiritual Blessings to ALL

The Mind Body Spirit Approach to Weight Loss

The success rate from dieting is quite low. In fact most people will gain back all of the weight they lose within 3 to 5 years. Many will attempt again and end up back on the roller coaster. A ride I know too well. What I believe has been the key to helping me keep the weight off and being healthy overall has been a mind, body and spirit approach to weight loss. It all starts with developing a positive mind set about yourself. In other words you have to start by doing the inner work first. Then the outer self will be a reflection of the changes that have taken place from the inside. Well you may be wondering where to start?

First let's look at what is mind, body and spirit? I like to use the analogy of a car. The operation of a vehicle needs the body of the car which is analogous to our own physical body, the parts that make it work or the mind and the fuel, or our spirit. The spirit is not to be confused with the soul. I like to think of the soul as the steering wheel of the car. It's responsible for helping to guide us. Whereas the spirit is that part of us that drives us forward. When we are fed with feelings that are positive we are moved more easily toward our goals. Negative thoughts, emotions and fears are detrimental to our spirit and keep us stuck, lost and directionless. This is the most critical aspect of any weight loss program. Like anything in life, if we embody negative thoughts it will keep us from not only feeling good about ourselves but also from achieving our goals. Therefore I believe its so important to feed your spirit along with working on your body and mind to succeed at weight loss. Just like a perfectly working car with all it's parts. By now you may be asking the question: How do I feed my spirit?

Next I'd like you to determine if you hold predominantly a negative or positive view of your physical self. This is what I call the mirror test. Look in the mirror and check if the first thing you see is something negative about your body that you don't like? For example, when you look in the mirror do you sigh and point out the wrinkles, the fat on your arms etc? Or is the first thing you see some feature of your body you like? Most people will likely point out a feature they don't like. Right away that tells me that there's a problem with self image. Especially if this happens every time you look in a mirror. And this is where the programming needs to change. If you walk onto that gym floor after looking in the mirror at all the parts of your body you don't like your setting yourself up for failure. None of the exercises or programs will work and if they do they will likely not have permanent effects. If your car is going to operate properly you make sure all the parts are working and it has fuel. Just the same, you need to ensure your mind, body and spirit are all in tow. In other words if you don't fuel your spirit your body isn't going to respond positively either. Do you see how all three are integrated? When your spirit isn't being fed you start reaching for all that comfort food. And then the vicious cycle continues all over again.

This brings me back once again to the question I posed earlier and that is how do you feed your spirit? Your spirit is something you want to feed every day even when your not in the gym. It requires you to make positive affirmations about yourself. Here's a sample list of statements:

1. My body is good to me and I am good to my body.
2. I am grateful to my body for all that it does for me.
3. My body is the housekeeper of all good things.

You can start with these or make up your own. Its important that you keep your focus and attention on the positive aspects of your body. By doing so you will fuel your spirit. And just like any car, without fuel it's going no where.
When you stop and look into a mirror try looking into your eyes and say statements like:

1. I am in the process of becoming healthier
2. I am a perfect human being in the eyes of God
3. I approve of myself

When you go the gym you take your gym bag with you filled with your workout clothes, water bottle etc. I also want you to take with you all the tools you need to feed your spirit. Keep a spirit journal and jot down a few positive statements like the ones above before you begin your workout. Also, before bedtime right out your statements 20 times for 2 weeks. This will help keep your frame of mind positively on track! You'll also shift your self perception from a negative to a positive one and that is key to succeeding at any of your life's goals.

On a day to day basis feeding our spirit is about doing things and making choices that make us happy. It's thinking positive thoughts about ourselves, our work environment and our relationships. Its all about the simple things we can do for ourselves that don't have to cost any money. What ways can you feed your spirit?

The mind, body and spirit approach is all intertwined and one aspect will inevitably affect the other. If we don't address all three we will stay stuck or fail. This can lead to all sorts of imbalances that will affect the relationship we have with ourselves, relationships with others as well as our overall health.

Successful weight loss begins with a positive mind set and a shift in our perceptions of our physical body. The shift starts when we reprogram our thoughts to create positive feelings about ourselves. By doing so we can achieve our weight loss and other life related goals.

Every day is a Miracle

Angel Fitness Blessings To ALL

How We Can Learn and Heal From Our Past Lives

I always new that this is not my first life on this planet. I have this memory and wisdom that I recall or surface at times and I don't really know where it comes from. It's more then an inner knowing and it can't be that I picked up this information from somewhere or someone. These are in fact personal memories of moments that occurred when I was in a different body, a different person and sharing my life in that moment with a completely different set of family and friends. These entailed detailed accounts of events that took place. Once I became familiar with the idea of having past lives I decided to do regressions or meditations which allowed me to go into a certain life to see how it had an effect on my current one. It helped me with several current life issues.
Past lives can enlighten us of fears, blocks and relationship issues. They can tell us what old patterns we continue and how to break them. They can also explain our purpose, soul lessons and our karma.

Whenever I've had a deep connection with someone it was like remembering a love that was always there. It felt more like a reunion then getting to know a person for the first time. I've done this exercise before where I've sat in front of someone and we would look into each others eyes and start to recall our memories from our past lives that we shared. This can be really powerful and also intimidating. I don't suggest you try it unless you have two willing partners. But what I've learned from all this is that the story of our lives has continued from many life times ago. And all the memories of every life has come with us into this one. Can you imagine the memory bank we have? And imagine that each and every one of the cells in our bodies is the library of all this information. Consider how this is helpful to heal a painful memory or fear that we had from a previous life.

Doing a past life regression is like doing surgery. You never know what your going to discover until you look inside. And nothing could've prepared me for what happened with my client Rebeca. Rebeca came to me one summer day for a Spiritual Personal Training session. We started off with me doing an Angel Reading for her. However, we then switched streams and from that moment on I don't think I could've ever imagined as to what was going to happen next. Rebeca was in her early twenties with so many ideas about her future and not certain which direction to take. The reading was like most but then she had asked for help in a particular area of her life. The Angels guided me to do a past life regression on her. Since then I asked her to write about the experience she had and in her own words. The following is an account of the regression.

I’m not entirely sure as to how it started or how it happened.

The main purpose for my regression was to figure out why I had such a severe fear of my elbow pits as well as the back of my knees. I could not touch them, look at them, or even anyone else’s elbow pits or the back of their knees as well (silly I know).

But the regression started off with me in a field and I was on a vengeful hunt. I was some sort of Japanese warrior, but I only fought solo. It felt as though my purpose was to take down the Japanese empire, to seek revenge, but also it felt like I was trying to protect the country possibly. It felt as though that I had no one, no family, no friends and I was in constant hiding from the Japanese emperor and his army at the time. I think possibly that the Japanese emperor had killed my family and that was my purpose for revenge.

I was a male and I was roughly of the age of 21 years old, but I was planning my revenge for over 7-8 years. I would strike in between those years of planning to get to the emperor but they were subtle strikes – such as attacking certain members of his army to send a sign I was still alive and coming to attack. I was a very skilled warrior, and the emperor and his army were always on guard for when I would strike. It felt like I was almost the Osama BinLaden of the time because they could never find me, but I would still strike here and there out of nowhere.

The regression started with me being in disguise and I had made it to this large open field that would have led up to the emperor’s palace. But his army members surrounded the area so I had to be very careful. I would sneak around here and there and kill the army members calmly, swiftly, but efficiently within a matter of seconds.

As I got closer and closer to the emperor’s palace, my attacks became harder as word got out that I was on the emperor’s land. I was fighting more and more, and I was taking on many men at once. Soon I started seeing fire spread throughout the land and there were men coming from everywhere. But they weren’t too sure which one I was as I had disguised myself as one of them.

It felt like I was almost fighting for hours and I was getting closer and closer to the palace. I was so close to receiving my vengeance it felt like. A whole battle was started solely on me. It wasn’t until two soldiers figured out which one I was and they snuck up on me and I believe they stabbed me at my legs. I don’t’ think it was the back of my knees though, I can’t remember entirely. But just as quick as they did that, they slit me at my elbow pits almost instantaneously and I remember falling to the ground immediately and I was lying on a hill as they watched me suffer and bleed.

They then removed my helmet to confirm that it was me. I couldn’t see my face, I just knew I was Japanese, and I could see them standing over me watching me bleed from my elbows. Soon enough I saw more men gather over me and just watch me bleed out and in disbelief that it was all finally over.

I never saw myself die during that session. However, later that evening my boyfriend's aunt put me in a meditative state. I don’t believe I was talking out loud (I am not too sure), but I started reliving those events from the moment I fell to the ground. I still was not able to see my face, but I remember seeing myself rise out of my body. It was so surreal because as I was rising, I was standing over my body and watching myself with the rest of the soldiers. Only they did not know I was there as I was dead.

Shortly after my death, I remember I found myself in front of a a giant old library that looked like a cathedral. I was greeted at the entrance by a wise looking old man with a very long beard. From there I went inside and it was like I knew where I was going. I went to a room with many, many ancient looking books all over the place. I remember picking out one book in particular. It felt like that was my book; one of many books I owned I think. I remember all the pages were blank as I sat to read through it at this beautiful wooden desk. But at the same time, I knew exactly what one particular page said, and it was a message/lesson from that life:

‘Do not let your pride get in the way of your end goal’

I really think my fear of my elbow pits is a reminder for me in this life. I work hard and at times, I do let my ego and my pride get in the way of my work, and it may impact my work , my co-workers or possibly my work environment in general. This reminder, especially after having this regression has allowed me to be more aware of my setting, and my reactions in my setting as well.

Since that regression I have been able to release some of my fear. I have been able to touch my elbow pits now on my own, and even the back of my knees. However I still can’t stare at it, or have anyone else touch it. As well, I cannot look at anyone else’s elbow pits. It’s a work in progress but I’m sure I will get there one day.

Rebeca

The gateway to our past lives is accessible. It can provide us with information, guidance and healing. And like in Rebeca's case this one regression began to give her insights regarding her fears. There are perhaps many layers to uncover and a certain regression will give us an opportunity to began that process. In Rebeca's case her healing has began. And when she's ready in her own time she'll then go in further too see what other previous life experiences she'll learn about to continue the healing process.

Every day is a Miracle.

Angel Blessings to ALL